i rarely feel the sense of accomplishment
i've noticed that some people are genuinely able to celebrate their achievements, both the big milestones and the small moments: graduations, marriages, anniversaries, reaching a goal...
for me, it's different. when i finish something, my reaction is usually just, "okay, great. that's one less thing occupying my mind." it feels more like clearing mental space than achieving something.
the moments when i've truly felt successful have been incredibly rare. and interestingly, they haven't been tied to the kinds of milestones that most people celebrate. they came from something much quieter, something that, from the outside, probably wouldn't have looked like success at all.